Can I be real with you?


Can I be real with you? I’ve always wanted to be a writer.

I’ve been a voracious reader ever since I can remember and I made up this story that you had to be a New York Times bestseller or have millions of blog followers to be able to say, “I am a writer.” Or at least you had to have your act together.

Guess what? I don’t have my act together.

Some days it feels like a miracle that I got a hot shower, and drying my hair is definitely not guaranteed. That takes time.

But I’ve always felt like I had a lot to say, or that maybe some women who are like me would resonate with the struggles, triumphs and find some inspiration in doing life TOGETHER.

So since we’re being real here, 2015 was a really, really hard year. It didn’t go at all like I thought it would.

It was one of those years where there was an equal part of incredible, amazing, glorious blessings and an equal part of really hard struggles and trials. Depending on how you look at each situation – with either a positive slant or a negative one – would determine what you thought about it. So suffice it to say, I’m not sad to say goodbye to 2015 and I’m really excited that 2016 is here.

One of my goals for 2016 is to write more. More for myself personally in my journal and also to share more with you here on the blog.

For me, writing is cathartic. It helps me remember and chronicle my journey. It helps me slow down long enough to have some time to myself, to reflect.

Writing is both a joy and a struggle for me. I am constantly self-editing, wondering what you will think, afraid to share too much, but then realizing when I don’t share it feels lifeless and fake. I hate fakeness.

Looking back, I realize that I spent a lot of last year Iiving in a state of fear and worry, which is pretty unlike me. I was afraid to write. I was worried and anxious, thinking through different outcomes to some tough situations. But do you know what?

Worrying didn’t add a single day to my life. It didn’t make my days better. Living in fear and not writing didn’t help at all.

“This is why I tell you: Don’t worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Isn’t life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the sky: They don’t sow or reap or gather into barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren’t you worth more than they?  Can any of you add a single cubit to his height by worrying? And why do you worry about clothes? Learn how the wildflowers of the field grow: they don’t labor or spin thread. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was adorned like one of these! If that’s how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and thrown into the furnace tomorrow, won’t He do much more for you—you of little faith? So don’t worry, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ For the idolaters eagerly seek all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be provided for you. Therefore don’t worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:25-34

So as I reflect on what I want to do different this year, I want to CHOOSE JOY.

That’s my big theme for the year: Choose Joy instead of worry. Choose joy instead of a negative attitude. Choose Joy and positivity and trust that my Heavenly Father knows all the situations that are unfolding in my life. He knows how each one is going to work out. There’s nothing that isn’t in His control. He knows the numbers of hairs on my head and the stars in the sky.

Will you journey with me as I CHOOSE JOY this year?

I definitely don’t have my act together or millions of blog followers, but I do know that I am a writer.

God has given me a big voice and an incredible story of Redemption that I know He wants me to share, so I’m praying that He gives me the courage to start doing that more.

As you start this year, I pray you too would remember not to live in a state of fear and worry. Anxiety gets us nowhere in life fast. Choose JOY with me. I’m so excited to journey with you this year.

What are your goals? What are you dreaming about accomplishing this year?

So much love and a big bear hug,

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